Genre Schizophrenia

I'm beginning to feel a bit between worlds, as a writer.

Today I head to Evanston, at the behest of Carol Dee at Dee's Bookstore (& Boutique). I'm meeting with some kind of ladies group at 2 o'clock, to read from and discuss Wyo Trucks. Then there's a spaghetti dinner at 6, to encourage more folks to come visit with me. You now know pretty much everything I do. The funny thing is, Carol emailed me about this gig a couple of months ago -- when I'd initially emailed her back in 2004, when the book came out. I'd contacted most of the Wyoming bookstores and visited many of them for various events. She was going through old emails and found my note. And here we are today.

When the Evanston newspaper called to interview me yesterday, the reporter was surprised that this isn't a new book. I told her I didn't know why now. But that the Georgia Review published a review of it in 2006. Things move slowly after publication sometimes, too. I'm expecting Oprah to call in 2012.

It's funny to me, because I'm doing less and less for Wyo Trucks these days, which is natural, since the book is now five years old. I've been doing fiction since, cloistered away writing novels. Then less-cloistered trying to sell at least the first one. Worse, I'm writing genre-fiction -- whether you consider it romance or sci-fi/fantasy, so I'm feeling like a bit of a pariah from my erstwhile literary community. I used to be on the university's Creative Writing MFA email list, but have been dropped. Sometimes I was invited to speak to university classes on writing, but no longer. A lot of this is because people have moved on and times change. But some is also because I'm no longer really investing in the literary nonfiction world. It's not where the lion's share of my attention is focused. Instead of hanging with the MFA types, I've been going to meetings of the Colorado Romance Writers, the Romance Writers of America national convention, and interacting online with the Fantasy, Futuristic and Paranormal writers.

So, this feels like a distraction, doing this today. And more than a little schizophrenic. Which surprises me, since I made a deliberate decision to publish my speculative fiction under the same name as my essays, believing that all my writing is really of one piece. Clearly I see a split, since my website poses the fundamental dichotomy up front.

Apparently it's up to me to hold the pieces together.